Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. ~ Psalm 1: 1-6
You can't have one foot in the mud and one foot in the dry if you want success in your faith and in life.
Frustration comes quickly for the man who wants God's best but can't stop dabbling with the darkness.
Get your mind right. Get your goals set. Point your heart and mind toward knowing God. Blessings will follow, decisions will become clear. The clouds at the summit will fade and the path will be easy to see..
Study God's word daily. Worship God's Glory hourly. No perfect people needed, just a desire to move toward God every day.... and stop playing in the mud.